Joan Didion's Year of Magical Thinking
Only two hours after I began turning the pages of Joan Didion's The Year of Magical Thinking did I finally manage to tear my nose from its print and wonder why it had absorbed me so completely. Unlike a detective story, it has no trail of clues that shimmer with the promise of an answer. Nor does it possess the cold hot shower of serenity and terror that tugs forward crime stories. Instead, Didion bullets the main event, her husband and companion writer John Dunnes December 30th 2004 fatal heart attack, in a small section of her first chapter. There is no mystery or suspense involved. Just as her daughter Quintannas hospitalization from December 25th 2004 on, appears and disappears throughout in factual whiffs. The major part of the work interweaves Didions thoughts and actions over 2005, with her analysis of them.
What turns those pages then? Is it the catharsis that addicts Greek tragedy-goers? Or is it the fascination of abomination that turns the heads of drivers when they pass a road-accident and sends them crashing into the car in front of them? No, Didion does not dwell on the events that changed her life. Never does she dive into an adjective and detail-heavy account of nervous break downs or unstoppable tear ducts.
Her grief cannot be measured in our everyday emotions: "grief turns out to be a place none of us know until we reach it [ ] we might expect that we will be prostrate, inconsolable, crazy with loss. We do not expect to be literally crazy, cool customers who believe that their husband is about to return". Her writing does not fold in about herself. Instead she places herself in a crowd of widows; in the statistics of science and literature. Her citations of media and of such scientists as Freud and Emily Klein comfortingly re-evaluate her actions and thoughts of 2005 as various symptoms of grief.
After her husbands death, she refuses to throw out his shoes in case he might come back. It is the magical thinking of the title. It is also the denial of death which she likens to that of a deceased nineteen-year-olds mother on an HBO documentary. She slices the flow of her years meager accomplishments and bitter-sweet flashbacks with italicized reminders that they are mere manifestations of grief. "I tell you that I shall not live two days " harkens back to a literary passage which exemplifies how the dying sense their death beforehand. The italicized sentence intrudes when she remembers her husband insisted on going to Paris just before that fatal New Years Eve.
Didion leaves the Goethe-like pouring of emotions to frequent citations of such poets as Auden, Matthew Arnold, and Gerard Manley HopkinsI wake and feel the fell of dark, not day. It is as though she deems herself less-worthy of a writer to struggle with the indescribable experience of death.
But Didions writing is superb and quasi single-handedly abracadabras her work into a page-turner. She captivates by foiling sharp, poignant sentences describing eventsJohn was talking, then he wasntwith the mellifluous poetry of her flashbacks"It was an effect of light: quick sunlight dappling, yellow leaves falling [ ], a shower of gold, spangled, very fast, a falling of the bright."
These poetic descriptions of an irretrievable past often move to tears. But that is not the purpose of The Year of Magical Thinking, nor does it raise Joan Didion as a heroic model for stoicism and good-dealing with grief. Instead, the work heightens the presents worth and the urgency of embracing it fully. Tragedy destroys, but even grief does not erase the beauty of memories. Didion has proved this in her masterpiece.

